Malaika

met up w/ g, amir (g's bf) and ronnel last night. man, it was soooo good seeing them again! another gas trip!
oh yeah, troy played a prank on me. i didn't see him in starbucks and since he lost his phone, he asked mel for my # just so he could do what he did to me! nasty trick! mean-mean-mean!.. but thoughtful in a way i guess, coz he could have totally ignored me and all, but he didn't... (why does that thought suddenly make me feel like a meanie?) oh well, past is past, and i have changed for the better (i hope) and no.. i have no regrets whatsoever, and will not give in (prides a hard thing to get rid of!) uhh.. mel, if you read this... my defense mech is out of order! so you better not be thinking what i think your thinking! :P and no, this is NOT karma!
anyway.. enough said about that.. oh yeah, heard shrutz gettin' hitched next year! kewl!

lost to the archers yesterday! hmmm.. the warriors seemed to have butter fingers! lol! it was fun cheering tho'. also dropped by NIP for a meeting, man, somethings a-brew-ing! hehehe!, i'll just lift it all up to the one who knows best. also got my assignment, i'm looking forward to it and hope things work out! too bad i can't join 'em in batangas this weekend!
also chatted w/ g last night. i have to go do some shopping for tomorrow right after work so i can fix up the meal!
what a lovely friday! and the cookies from my boss is reeeaaal good! wow, it's already 10 and i haven't even started on my 'work' work yet! hehehe!

wow, half the day's through!! thought i'd blog while i wait for Eyron to arrive, man, he's taking his time, thought i'd have lunch w/ him and catch up on his life! he seems to be busy w/ gigs these days, anyways, it's been months since i last saw him. oh yeah, and it's his birthday today!
the enduro thing was kewl, although i don't see myself entering the field of being a camera girl for athletes! dang! i was sooooo tired of running, i have to improve my stamina. oh yeah, i marshalled for the game plan team, someone asked me if i could handle it, and i go, "it's fine with me!" man, i don't watch much TV, how was i supposed to know who they were! lol! anyway, it was great marshalling for them, i had a couple of laughs, actually i thought rovi was the funniest, and i did learn something about birds during the car conversations! oh yeah, trisha reminded me of Jet, and uh carlo cracked me up when he said someone at the market recognized him! lol! in my opinion, akiko was the kindest! anyway, they better start training for the luzon and visayas leg! oh yeah, they came in 2nd, actually third, but the group who came 2nd weren't allowed to win! mckanns (sp)
oh yeah, the san mig players came first, the cute dude was in that team, but dunno his name, he was just easy to start a conversation w/ so, that was cute! also saw two old friends! :)
hmm. i guess the batangas thing is on re-sked coz no-one woke up the next day! lol! so i'm still looking forward to that, i just can't figure out where we'll be able to rapel in daguldol! the only place i can think of is the falls!
oh eyah, i better get teh IT for manalmon soon so i can fix it up for saturday!
well, i'm hungry... AARON! hurry up!

i'm looking forward to watching R in action as he tries to use the pick up lines he was telling me about... wahahaha!
some of them were:
"do you have raisins?"
(no)
"how bout a date?"

uhh..
"can i take a picture of you?"
(why?)
"so i can show santa what i want for christmas!"

and another...
"if i told you that you had a fine body, would you put it against me?"

he had me cracking up earlier! lol! well, it's not exactly word for word.. but.. that's what i remembered! lol!
well, i'm off to enjoy my weekend! Hope it doensn't rain!

forgot my office keys in my other bag this morning, so i sat by the benches outside till my boss came and opened the door!
i feel so haggard today, i had like 2 hours of sleep, slept around 10 and woke up at 12, then tried getting back to sleep by 1:30, but i just tossed and turned thinking stuff over, man, what a nightmare not being able to sleep, and next thing i know, it's time for me to get my butt outta bed! i really need to think and weigh things out, and pray about it.
i munched on one of pedro's letters, and the "submit" bit kinda stuck!
i have definitely got to sleep at lunch break coz i'm looking forward to the 5th dimension talk later!
which reminds me, i have got to get food for satuday, don't wanna go hungry during the race! lol!

yessss.. and the day is nearly over!
i still don't know where the meeting place is gonna be for saturday,
right now i've missing eve playing in my head.. specially the "spare me the..." hehehe.
oh yeah, caught a cold, hope it doesn't last long! why am i so sickly these days?!!
nuthin' funny has happened today, how odd, i usually laugh/smile/crack up at the smallest incident, i guess the unhappy bug is catchy!

it's a rainy day thursday!
got to work earlier than usual so i was able to spend a few minutes on devotion, my spirit must be real malnourished by now! lol! chewed on Santiago and chit-chatted a bit.
my words of wisdom for today, based on my calendar: "if you can't forgive others, you burn behind the only bridge that can get you back to God" wow, a slap on the face... ok, i forgive! don't want to go burning bridges.
and from my QT: "faith w/out works is DEAD!"
oh yeah, just found out that 316 changed their name to bought by blood, i find that group funny, specially their growls, and them in general! i can't growl like them, i can only do a mini-growl! they're like the lion and i'm like the cub. lol!
part of their song from 'why' goes
"Time for war destroying all opposition,
Crush you to a pulp like assault demolition"

i have no idea where i left my favorite ring, it's the only one i usually like wearing coz it's simple. now i've gone misplaced it somewhere! arrgh.. my hand feels incomplete. oh well, it's just material stuff. it'll either show up or get replaced, so no use sulking over it! although it does have a reason why i wear it. kinda like a covenant.

just copying the status of doc and do:

Malaika
24, abstinent

felt like blogging, just to pass time. i'm starting to miss my room. and other stuff!
i've another meeting tomorrow regarding the enduro thingy.. eeek! thoughts from last night suddenly invade my head.
Ed and co have plans for sunday, but i'm not sure if i could join them, i know it'd be a blast, and i get to go snorkeling and stuff, but i kinda said i'd attend the odc meeting the other day. i'd love to go to both, but if i went w/ ed and co, i'd prolly be back late sunday.. besides, where will i sleep? i don't think they have plans to sleep after the enduro thing!
oh yeah, i'm also having second thoughts on being a marshall. what if i get tired and all, i haven't been doing runs for so long, i feel really incompetent for the job, but i guess if they can do it, so can I. Aragorn asked me if i could handle it, i said i could, well, i'll just see what'll happen on sat! i'm nervous-excited!
ok, so i guess the puerto thing is about to move up a notch, since i've got the date set. hope blossom's sched doesn't change, i'm also looking forward to that, wow, looks like foolish fun ahead! too bad the other zed peeps aren't available. it would've been great to bond w/ them. hmm... maybe when ronz come over.
why do people ask if i'm happy with my relationship status?!! do i look sad?!! i mean, being committed is not the only reason to bring happiness in my life. there's so much more to it than that, besides, why should i do the pursuing, not my forte, i wish i could have said something when he mentioned the feeling of being in the same room w/ his ex, but all i could do was nod, man, i couldn't relate, ( i didn't want to try to) so it was better for me to shut up and nod! oh yeah, i did end up asking "but why?, what happened?" they looked good together, but i guess i shouldn't base it on that! howell, that's life!
oh drat! it's begining to rain!
i'm outta here.

i practically slept-walked all the way to work... was awake just to pay the driver and get out the fx! lol! oh yeah, and to change rides! but now i'm a bit more alive!
was pretty pooped last night, i didn't expect the meeting to last that long! good thing i had company on the way home. i dunno why, but i kinda act ... uhh.. *duh* in front of the wrong people, pansin ko langi don't mean to, but it's like that! why-why-why! hehehe, i don't want to answer, but it kinda makes me cringe after!
oh yeah, there was a brown out at the village when i got home last night. meralco post got busted! HP was at the store so he informed me about the happenings earlier on, thought he was pulling my leg, but my mom confirmed it! lol! too bad i didn't get there earlier, would have wanted to see a flying bench w/ my own eyes! lol! oh yeah, i can't believe what E texted! sheesh!

i wonder if the friction fog will ever disappear... it's getting in the way of my performance!
eh-ni-wey, a few more minutes and i can kiss this place good-bye for the day.
i gotta meet i-lin at philcoa by 5:30, but knowing i-lin, she'll be there by... uhh.. i hope i don't know i-lin! lol! anywayz, i'll work me an appetite so i can pig out when i get there before we go to PCED!
lets see... i have 3 days and a couple of hours to go and i'll be through popping those gross tasting anti-bac pills in my mouth, and having to wake up at 1:30 just to down one!
oh yeah.. goody-news... i've finally gained back a few pounds.. i can see my cheeks again! whooopeeee!

i just remembered, there was a full moon this morning, around 6am, real pretty, hope there's one too this evening.. looks like it's gonna rain, hope not, don't have an umbrella with me ..
i refuse to believe the "red sky at night, shepherds delight..." thingy .. i'm not superstitious!

i think i screamed a bit too much last night.. or is it the candy? my throat is worse off now than it was in the morning.

i want the day to end, i'm excited for what awaits me tomorrow, but i know.. take each day at a time, P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E!
"525,600 minutes! how do we measure, measure a year!"

oh yeah, chit-chatted w/ a friend.. i still find a 10 year gap in a relationship weird! ... and pakner for no reason whatsoever comes to mind! hehehe!

i think i'll be having a nice week ahead, i'm all smiles! i wonder why...
1. the moon was beautiful last night,
2. .....

my weekend made up for my crap week. watched a movie, saw friends, hung out w/ mel sat night, slept a lot, oh yeah, was supposed to hang out w/ aragorn sunday but a meeting came up, thank god his meeting came up, i had an errand to run and was having a hard time balancing my time and figuring out how to get from point 'a' to point 'b' in as little time as possible. oh well, at least it's not my call for a re-sked! hehehe!
oh yeah, saw B again, been a while since i heard him play the drums, made me ask how AA was doing.
hmmm..the warriors had a good game last night, and it just proves that me watching 'em doesn't give them bad luck! lol! first time to watch them in araneta with them winning, i kinda got used to them losing whenever i watch. hehehe!
also got a save sex cd from do, the artists looked really young in the pics, man, how long did it take for them to launch that?!!
about the challenge thingy, i get to be part of the camera crew! hehehe! wonder how that happened...
oh well, gotta get started on work!

bought a peasant blouse (with friggin SLEEVES) during lunch break.
oh yeah, guess who this is "joy, if you come to work in those (pointing to trainers) i will send you home!"
my reaction "uh.. okay!"
my thoughts "don't want to blog it down, hehehe" clue: the flesh gagged the spirit! but.... i got bonked on the head and the spirit took over!

huwaw! someone's got a mighty big pole stuck up their ....

*news flash - news flash - news flash - news flash - news flash - news flash*

wow, the guy who never smiles finally smiled! lol! and i thought he was a lost case. i've been trying to make him smile whenever i bump into him but it never worked. well, whatdyaknow, he's human after all!

at least that kinda cleared the cobwebs beginning to form today!

"a smile can bridge, the difference between us!"

would have been an okay start if not for being told off for what i wear on Friday's! dang.. "you're not allowed to wear sleeveless, your stomach's showing, rubber shoes are not allowed, this is not an excursion, this is an office!, etc" ... well, there goes 75% of my wardrobe!.. but i'll be taking all that proactively.. as a matter of fact.. i'm already planning my corporate attire for next friday! mwahahahaha!

oh yeah.. my induction got moved! lol! how sweet of them. we'll just be having our socials at sarah's this evening instead! lol!

and another work day is nearly over...
so long, farewell, i have to say good-byeeee
the sun has gone to bed, and so must i-eeeeee
why on earth did the sound of music come to mind?!!

anyway....

was able to work a bit, also remembered the filzam board, it's been pretty dead. wonder what they're all up to. looks like life's swallowed them up and spat me out! oh yeah, i just realized i got a pm from my sis.. better tell doc if he could do something about alerts... maybe it'll help!
and tomorrow's a friday! well, what'dya know! this hell week is finally over!
just left me with a sore back.. and why do i get this feeling that my pain is moving around?.. can't it just stay in one place and behave like most pains in the butts do?!! sheesh!

should i give the lib a visit? or go straight to UP?
i wanna watch dum-d-dum-dum!
wonder if anything good is out.. can't wait for tomb raider! yay!

ONE DAY Words & Music by Tanya Low from the album SIMPLE TRUTH

One day, He’ll come back ridin’ on the clouds
And every people all the earth will bow
One day, one day
And all the mysteries of truth will be revealed
What we’ve been dreamin’will all be very clear
One day, one day

And there will be no more night
For Jesus will be our light
He’ll break the power of sin
We’ll reign forever with Him
Before the throne of the Lamb
Every nation will stand
He’ll look with love on His bride
and wipe the tears from her eyes

All of creation is longing for that day
When Christ brings freedom from its bondage
To decay One day, one day
But our present suffering cannot be compared
To all the glory that one day we will share
One day

What we will be has not yet been made known
But we will be like Him, I know

What we’ve been dreamin’ will all be very clear

----
my fav song at the mo...

this has definitely got to be one of my low months. i just can't believe it's lasting this long... flippen 'eck! what da... oh mother of pearls!
looks like i won't be getting inducted this weekend unless a miracle happens overnight which i doubt (oh me of lil' faith)
anyway, i'm setting up plan "b" for my weekend, which would prolly include a visit to the doc. i guess it's coz i've been told more than twice last night to "go see a dr." man, it's like a sentence. i have a thing for dr's specially when it involves me.
maybe it's not that bad.. at least i won't have to go hiking on horse shit and breaking my back carrying a full pack! i'll even try to sqeeze in a movie or two while they're up there, and then go watch the game on sunday! better call up MP too and see if she'll be needing help.

arrrghhh... i think i've perfected the art of just sitting at one place doing nuthin' whatta waste of time!
but it got me thinking about what VG and doc posted, i also remembered ate farah, and my discipleship time w/ her. coz she was the first person i talked to regarding doctrines. about what them guys posted, my belief would prolly fall between the two... but slightly more calvinist i think! there is just some points i don't want to agree with, but hey, that's just me, no hard core evidence to back it up! basta, it's between me and God

i want to go home now naaaaaaaaa! i'm just being unproductive here, and i don't like it.. i might as well be at home asleep! oh yeah, better check if the phone works, kaboinks said he'd call bout the games...

why-why-why....
does my body ache so?!!

heard from grish, said rhea sounds the same but w/ a bit of an american accent, man, miss my old friends. but i'm certain i'll be meeting up w/ them. just dunno when that'll be.. but it'll happen!

i've just finished what i was working on and i have nuthin else to do at the mo... so i'm just being a bum!

i also have nothing to type down... hmm.. what can i talk about for the whole world to read?
oh yeah, no wonder MM didn't reply, when i sent him a text message asking for directions, turned out his sim got busted.
i was supposed to give a gift to a friend of mine.. the gift's names puar, but i think it's better i don't give it anymore (iwas gulo).. was supposed to give it last christmas. howell, i could always change my mind

i like this song by buklod:

Kanlungan
Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dalawa ay unang magkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayo nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba? Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak Kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangan ding lumisan?

Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang 'yong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?

Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan?

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

got this from the libre paper i got from the LRT yesterday! i saw the commercial this morning.
i don't really understand some of the words though! i gotta ask around! hehehe!

"it's gonna be a happy day! It's gonna be a happy day! HAPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEE" <-- my happy chant for today!

decided to go to the pre-climb yesterday, met up w/ some batchmates. Ed cracked me up big time! man, just watching his face makes me laugh... his jokes.... uh.. his face makes me laugh! lol!
i'm psyching myself up for this weekend... i don't want to walk on horse shit mixed in mud... Lord, please don't let it rain! and please don't let them leeches and nik-niks be true! and it looks like my visitor is due any day.. oh yeah... and the thieves.. maybe Ed could talk to them in advance lol!

there's still friction between me and my uh.. mom? hehehe.. i really didn't mean what happened yesterday.. i truly was sorry! it's just that i haven't been acting my normal abnormal self recently...

i really should bring back my QT, i believe it's prolly the main cause of why things are the way they are... need to set an appointment with God.. got a bone to pick with him....

and my week starts of crap! dang... and it's only monday!
i screwed up some docs earlier, correction - a document, but i was sincere w/ my apology. i just want this day to end.. i need to go and talk to someone.. . someone who understands my uh.. individuality... hmmm.... that person better be emotionally stable. lol! think i'll skip the batch meeting later.
oh yeah, i came across proverbs 28:27 on my vessels calendar... just when i was thinking about supporting D. i said i'd reply by the end of the week. lets see... what can i do without this time?!! oh no, i think i lost the envelope... wonder where i left it!

my weekend was so-so.. allergies on my hand are begining to heal.. but why does it feel like it just transferred to my other hand? arrgh! went to a wake of a distant relative last sat. think she was my great grand aunt or something.. her husband died a year and two months before she did. it was also held at arlington, and in exactly the same room! she looked real pretty tho'. oh yeah, remembered when i went to the wake of her husband, the bro of MP (i'm not really 'close' to my relatives and have a hard time figuring out who's who). i went there with benjie after a lecture and it felt really awkward! hehehe! benjie was like "go speak to someone" i was like "i dunno who to speak to, the people who i know aren't here" so we just sat there for over 15 minutes whispering! lol! the people must have thought we were strangers or something! ... and then my tita malu came outta the room! hehehe!
oh well... i dunno why, but some friends i know can't stand to look inside a coffin.. i don't mind staring, but i don't make it obvious that i stare "stare" it might seem rude, so i just stay long enough until the people w/ me are through w/ their prayers.
the flowers were also pretty, there was one which had red gerbera's on it! i liked them better than the orchids, but i don't want to associate them w/ wake flowers... coz they're one of my favs.. hmm... when i die, i'll make sure i request carnations, the one's w/ a touch of pink! lol! they're pretty too!
hmm.. slept the whole day yesterday, didn't feel like hanging out w/ aragorn coz i still wasn't on the well side, just make it up to him next week.

watched the pep rally earlier.. oh yeah, and it's about time the pain killer did it's job! i don't feel the pain s'much! yay!
how come the basketball team always gets the most cheers? and they're like the "special ones"? i mean, i don't have anything against them, but shouldn't the others sports like track and fencing get as much attention as they do?!! oh well.. the cheering was a sight, but i was disappointed when the players had to let go of the balloons! Bad-bad-bad! don't they know that they are just adding additional waste to the environment? those heluim balloons could end up floating in some canal or body of water, or.. basta, it's still polluting!
and a 17 year old kid at 6'7"? whoa, what've they been feeding him?!!!

reminder to self: don't ever wear a red and black outfit to work... specially during pep rallys!

TGIF! didn't feel like going to work but had to! my foot and i are not in good terms right now. hope there are no communications to deliver, don't think i could bear walking around the place trying not to limp! howell! at least i know the feeling of pain once in a while!
flippin 'eck, hope the phone doesn't ring too, even that's bothersome!
gotta get my work done... and drop by the clinic later today to have my tonsils checked!
ain't it a HAPPY day! Not!

i think i spoke too soon... or my fairy godmother thought it was just about time for me to be part of the "in" crowd!
looks like i'll be a wee bit busy this july helping MP out! hope it doesn't reach august or i won't be able to hang out w/ ronnel!
oh yeah.. my granny's coming home! whooopeeee! and as of last sunday, i've been crashing at my sister's room! so my room is being taken cared of really nicely by my cousin and her friend! wow, i haven't had my room that neat for so long! it doesn't "feel" like my room!

was at PCED last night, too bad i couldn't have any isaw, docs orders! oh well, i'll be back at it in no time! saw aragorn too, it's been a while since i last saw someone i look up to. guess being busy is in these days, hell, why oh why am i never "in" hehehe!
induction got moved to next weekend so i should be expecting a run or two sometime next week. i'm also looking forward to helping out with the enduro challenge of san mig.. hmmm.. wonder how i could help out.. i think i'd prefer just staying at one place, at least it wouldn't be tiring, but shooting the teams should be a laugh.. so heal hands.. heal! oh yeah... wonder what the shirt'll look like! must not forget to attend the briefing next week! hope i get reminded about it! guess i won't be able to join daddy O's climb this month! sayang, daguldol pa naman. shucks!

i must remember to assist dad the next time he fixes the pump, that way, at least i'd have an idea where he keeps his tools! and i'd know what the parts are so i wouldn't have to say "the round metal thingy that joins the metal pole that goes up and down!"
mom, dad... you guys better come home soon!
oh yeah, met a churchmate at the LRT station, she asked for the school number coz she's planning to study again, i'm not quite sure if i gave her the school number or the canteen number! i kinda get the two mixed up!